By: Lou Rogers

As I sit here looking out one of your favorite windows

There you are sitting right here before me

You - looking at the world out there

Me - thinking of how I wanted to see -

-what you were seeing

How much I wanted to feel

-what you were feeling

Wanted to know

-what you were thinking

I so wanted to be with you in your mind

To experience and know your feelings

Just one more time

Longing for how it used to be -

Before Alzheimer’s came to take

Your wonderful mind from you and me

Forty seven years

I was your husband - you were my wife

Those warm and wanted places we held so long

Deep in my memory -

- But, no longer in my life

Your absence leaving me

With strange unbelieving feelings

With lonely fears and many hours of tears

How can our wonderful memories

Not be shared after all these years

How can it be, Lord?

How can it be?

Were you punishing her?

Or, -punishing me?

Now she is with you Lord

Now -- what about me

Must my life go on -

In the silence of our lost memory.